hide and seek

okay so you know what its like when you do something you know you shouldn't do cos its.. well not wrong. just. bad. really bad. but still you do it cos nothing else is really working and the bad way's the quikest and fastest. yea i know. it always is. anyway so u do it once. out of curiosity. twice. wondering if it really works. then three times.and by the 3rd time. you KNOW it works. and soon you do it regularly. but the little voice at the back of your head keeps shouting out 'quit it! youre killing yourself you asshole'. and you know its bad but you ignore that voice and keep doing it and it turns from an obession into an addiction. then how? ahh.

okae so i let my emotions get the best of me. but its not like i can help it. anw. was just thinking. sundays can just get so depressing. i mean yea. theres sunday service. but its the after-service-syndrome that makes me feel all so. crappish. its not suppose to be that way. well. i dont want it to be that way.

anw. been thinking bout some stuff lately. and i'll always leave it hanging. cos im not able to answer my own question. and before i know it. i'll move on to something else. so yea. im pretty screwed. and. my mood. its like a thermometer. 'no charlene! be a thermoset! THERMOSET HEAR ME.'

you know there are so many quotes that start with 'the greatest lesson in life is..' or 'the most important thing in life is..' etc etc. anw. so how will you know which is the greatest or most important thing in life? and then theres stupid quotes that make it into the big book of quotes on how to live a good and successful life. for example. 'God helps those who help themselve' huh? then why would you need God's help if you can help yourself? doesnt God help the helpless? ya?

oh great. there i go again. okae. this is getting no where. gtg. BYE.

posted by charxoxo @ 11:16 PM